I had been praying…talking to God about how I want things to go…but it seemed a lot was not going the way I thought it should go…I only wanted good things…things I was sure would please Him…I would set my mind on them…pray about them…but they would not go the way I thought they should…or even they way I thought God would want them to go…this kept occurring.
One morning, while praying, I realized…He is not saying “No”. Instead He has been trying to get me to see things from His perspective…to see that He has a much bigger plan…His plan to do things in a different way…in ways I had not considered…It had not seemed that I would get what I was looking for if I continued down His path.
And then I had this thought…It’s like I’ve been painting in a little room called “My life the way I see it.” But God had been inviting me into a much larger room…the one where He is painting…”My life the way He sees it.” It s a really big room… a room of brilliant colors and endless possibilities…and…a room where I don’t know how things will work out…He is asking me to paint with Him… to trust Him…to let Him work out the details.
So sometimes, I still find myself painting away in a little room…a place where I have become preoccupied...again... with how I want things to go...trying really hard to get things just right…then I will hear His voice...often just a whisper above the noise of my life… “Don’t settle…Stop painting in these little rooms…they have such limitations…I am down the hall…painting a really big room…using broad bold strokes that extend beyond where you are able to see…Come…paint with Me.”
2 comments:
.......i keep going back to rob bell's dvd "everything is spiritual". we see things in limited dimensions yet our existence has presence in dimensions we cannot see. god sees both sides. when we try so desperately to control the height, width, depth of a thing, we limit that which is infinite. god sees beyond our finite sensibilities. we have to be careful that our perception of god's relation to us isn't limited in scope by our preconceived religious ideals. i'm forever humbled by god's continuous, gentle, pull to expand the space i so desperately try to contain. once again cousin, i'm encouraged by your words.
I think I would like that CD...I have come to the conclusion that any image I have of God...limits Him to the boudaries of that image. In reference to Rob Bell,my first major hurdle in expanding my view of God was allowing Him to not fit my religion...it is so engrained that I still have days where I realize a belief or way of being that I have adapted is simply something from my old relgious thinking and not something God nessacarily desired. I sense a new blog coming on!
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